Thursday, 28 February 2013

Embrace Change

Wow! Gushing rain, cold howling winds, all interspersed with a sprinkling of sunshine here and there. Nature’s powerful diversity is grabbing our attention!  I just love all these changes…

Changes, changes.., mmmmm… We are organic beings and therefore we change every day even if we do not notice it…  We live our lives evolving and actively creating change, and intuitively we learn how to go with the flow when inevitable change comes our way.

"Change has long been a fearful thing for human beings ... and at the same time, it is our most Divine opportunity. Clinging to the banks of the river may seem safe and more secure, but life's possibilities are truly engaged only when we trust, release and become part of The Flow of the Universe" 
- Chelle Thompson, Editor of Inspiration Line-

We must open our minds to the opportunities and possibilities that hide behind any undesired, unexpected and inconvenient change.

I have to repeat again the following quote which I absolutely love and gives me such strength and energy boosting.

"If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies".- Author Unknown

All of a sudden I asked myself why I am talking about 'change' today, perhaps my soul is trying to tell me something... am I longing for a change in my life?... Yes, at some level I believe I am...., I have been so unhappy for so long now..., too long..., too too long..., but it is like if I am expecting nature to show me the way, is like I am expecting the Universe to upload me with the necessary and right energy to action… 

(to be finalized)

Yesterday it was my birthday... For the last few months I have been crying in silence..., and I am still feeling very weeping, and specially yesterday... one year more, and feeling so alone, so empty, so unloved..., too many tears..., too many memories..., too much thinking... too much reflecting in so many things, too much trying to understand why we come to this.... after twenty seven years..., why this happen.. after so much happiness for so many years, so much love, so much lost, so much complicity.... Ohhh! Why am I creating this reality... I know, it has to be because I need to get stronger inside-out, because changes are difficult, because we get so attached to people and things..., and specially we get attached to the man we love..., but I WILL NEVER GET ATTACHED TO REMAIN UNHAPPY..., and this has to give me the necessary strength to change, to change my reality for a HAPPY one...

Thank you so much for reading...x

Monday, 18 February 2013

A Kiss for you

Dear readers, just a quick post to share with you 'a kiss', my kiss.. A little painting I meant to have posted on Valentine's day for all of you out there who are/have been/will be 'in-love', but since this year this date had no importance in my life, I was feeling deeply sad and reflective the whole day and through out the week end. Nevertheless, I do remember very well celebrating this day very happily for many years, so while focusing in those wonderful times I felt inspired enough to paint this drawing to share with the e-world and the Universe. 

I hope you like it..  Being in love is the most wonderful feeling and powerful energy I have ever experienced and I hope to feel it again one day.. In the meantime I am in love with life, with the universe and with my enchanting and magical son.  

(A kiss-watercolour on paper. A5 size)

I also found this poem (lately poems are coming to me, I do not know why, because I was never really into poems!) which I felt very appropriate for the occasion and for my painting.

A Kiss

My lips to yours' wakes my soul,
My lips to yours’ tell a secret that only my heart knows.
Such grace as our eyes close
And share a breath...
Words lose meaning and mean even less.
Lost in rapture of a perfect dance,
when two lovers leap and take a chance.
A first kiss not outdone by the second-
a third kiss and surely the fourth one beckons!
No day shall ever find
a reason why,
no star could ever shine so divine...
A million poets could try-
but would fall every time,
When into rhyme they try to harness the
Passion of your lips pressed
against mine.

-Robert Hutchinson-

Thank you all for reading, I really appreciate it...

Monday, 11 February 2013

Dance Lightly with Life

Gushing rain, howling winds, a fleeting carpet of snow, all interspersed with a sprinkling of sunshine here and there. Nature’s powerful diversity is grabbing our attention.  I just love all these changes.. 
Dance Lightly With Life

Today is your day to
dance lightly with life,
sing wild songs of adventure,
soar your spirit,
unfurl your joy.
(Jonathan Lockwood Huie)

Jonathan is author of self-awareness books, Lover of Life, and has been called, "Philosopher of Happiness" (my favorite word: 'Happiness').   Please take a few minutes to read how he transformed his quality of life. Thinking in transformation, I thought in butterflies and this sketch came out of this thought.. (and because we all love to watch the process, I took a few little videos from my ipad, so I apologize for not being as good as from a video recorder camera, but I haven't got one!)

"Before becoming an author, I had a highly successful career in Silicon Valley's go-go world of high-technology start-up companies.
As a freshman at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology in 1963, I took an elective in computer programming. Developing an immediate obsession, I took every software course MIT offered, and launched a 30 year career in computers and high-tech electronics. My employers were always small start-ups with big hopes, and they encouraged my tendency to give undivided focus to my job. I was rewarded with promotions all the way to Vice President of Product Planning, and with a steady diet of coffee and late nights.
In 1994, I looked at my second divorce and my five kids who hardly knew me, and asked, "Is this the meaning of life?" My boss and good friend saw my pain and invited me to a weekend transformational event. For months, I found excuses to avoid committing, but finally I reluctantly agreed.
That first event was really the first time I had ever held a mirror to myself and asked what was inside Jonathan. Who, or what, was I? What did I believe about myself and about life? What would bring me lasting happiness? What would be important to have inscribed on my tombstone? Was I really in charge of my own life, and if so, what choices would I make?
I was fortunate that my first introduction to questioning my nature was very specifically psychological rather than spiritual or metaphysical. At that time, I would not have been open to any approach other than a mental one. Since age 12, I had been an avowed atheist - or perhaps agnostic, since I didn't spend much time thinking about the question. Nonetheless, through that weekend, I found that I wanted insight into myself and my world.
Over the next several years, my choice of teachers gradually progressed from psychological to metaphysical to spiritual, as I embarked on the voyage from techno-geek to seeker-of-wisdom - from non-belief to metaphysical questioner to a palpable all-encompassing connection with Spirit.
What brought me to become an author?
While I came to find my own inner peace late in life and didn't begin my journey toward an Inspired Life until I was turning 50, my search for revelations of universal wisdom and inner peace is now a lifelong quest. These days, I experience the force that binds together all life - past, present, and future - as a reality. We are composed of it, and simultaneously, we are a part of it.
My experience of life is SO different than it was 15 years ago! I am very grateful for the numerous sources of the one universal Wisdom of the Ages that have aligned to transform the quality of my life.
I am drawn to share what I have absorbed from these many sources, and from direct connection with the Infinite, in a way that is highly accessible and can assist others in transforming their worries and stresses into living an Inspired Life - joyful acceptance of life's uncertainties and a bold confident outlook on the future."

"My vision is "Joyful Living for All through Conscious Choice," and my mission is sharing that vision with the world" - Jonathan Lockwood Huie-

I hope you enjoyed, and sorry I couldn't finalize the drawing, but my weekend was too short ... I will finish it and post it as soon as possible... Thank you all so much for reading...x 

Friday, 1 February 2013

Love after love

- by Derek Walcott

The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life. 

Yes, right now I am one of those women out there who forgot about herself when being in a relationship for a very long time... For twenty three years my marriage was a magical and wonderful happy one… After twenty seven plus, I sadly to admit, that this is no longer the case, my husband and I are drifting apart, things are certainly not the way they used to be; those were the days, eh?, when we were in love, really and truly 'in love'..., and although one does not expect the same degree of being 'in-love', at least happiness should remain, especially after being together for such a long time.. A healthy relationship, that's all I want; don't you?... When you can still feel caring and happiness looking at each other's eyes…

Statistics show that the lack of communication is the main reason why relationships fall upart these days... No doubt this is true!.. Women we like to talk and talk until matters are totally clarified and full consensus achieved.. Most men don't like to talk at all, and this is something hard to accept... So, at the end of the day if I keep insisting in talking about 'us', I am told I am nagging.., and, if I decide to wait until my partner/husband decides to talk, (yes to talke about 'us' that 'us' that does not exist for a long, long time, way before our beautiful son was even born), about our feelings and where did we go wrong; then I can still wait, and wait and in the meantime a void between us begins to appear and with it a great distance... I used to believe that it was still possible to reconquer the love that I believed was still there, but as time passes, and this void gets bigger, I become disenchanted, and I begin to think that there is nothing between us to reconquer…

Did our ancestors communicate better about their relationships than us? Most of the older generations, certainly our grandparents and a huge majority of our parents out there seem to have pretty solid relationships.. Although I doubt very much they would talk about feelings in those days... Life was different and their needs were different...but, one begin to wonder, where they happier then, than we are today?... My mind wonders...

As the poem says, one thing is certain, I need to love myself more than ever before, especially after loving someone so much and for so long...(more than 27 years...)

 My eyes fill with tears and all I want is just paint, paint and paint... Art heals your body and soul, it puts you right in the present, in the very NOW, it clears your mind soothing your entire being.. This poem also got my inspiration going and as I begun to paint this image I was experiencing the healing of these profound and beautiful words:

"You will love again the stranger who was your Self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you all your life, whom you ignored for another, who knows you by heart.."

Have a happy and fulfilled weekend, and if you feel low steam or demotivated for whichever reason maybe, just make art.... and more ART..., and more ART..., and after that, MORE ART…

Lots of

(I believe the editing problems have been solved..  Thanks for your patience!)